Thanks, JB, I am trying to do the right thing as far as honoring my marriage. I don't know if it going to help save it, but it definitely makes me feel better about how I'm handling it. I'm proud of myself for taking the high road.
Journaling...
Had some interaction with H after D went to bed- we were discussing plans for Halloween today. We're going to take D trick or treating in his neighborhood. I mentioned to him something I heard about Steve Jobs buying his clothes in bulk, which reminded me of H because that's what he tends to do.
He made a snarky comment about some clothes (some that he bought for me)I left in a bag over there- I told him I must have left them by mistake when I was picking up stuff, and thank you because they will come in handy. I've lost a lot of weight so anything I don't have to buy is a good thing. He makes a snarky comment about 'glad he could help someone else's cause'.
I pretty much glazed over the comment, and just tried cracking a joke about helping 'his cause' instead. Then he hints that I could try on the clothes for him. My DB coach did say don't turn down opportunities when he reaches out, so I told him I would love to give him a 'private show'. Sorry folks, if this is TMI.
Anyway, then his comments turn to 'why not' and 'if that's what you want to do' as if he is just acquiescing to me. I'm thinking, wait? Wasn't this YOUR idea? I think he definitely wants the show, but now he has to make it look like he wasn't asking for it.
I feel a lot of jealousy coming from him, not sure if that's a good thing or not...
