I'm still here part III

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Journaling---

I haven't slept well in 2 days and today I didn't want to get out of bed.

But I had to.

I'm hoping once I am at work surrounded by all the usual chaos I'll be fine. In reality, today is no different than any other day has been the past 9 months.

S10 has been clingy the past few days as well. He didn't want to go to his Dad's house last night and asked to stay another day with me. His Dad said it was fine so he stayed.
I know he worries about me, but I always assure him that I am fine and when he's with his Dad I'm super busy.
Poor kid...he's been through so much this past year. We all have.

I can't wait for this to be over.

I don't think I'd take my H back even if he wanted to come back. He's done so much to hurt me and my kids, he doesn't deserve us.