alcoholic H decided he wants D

[imthemom]

Thank you VC...thats about the only thing that is getting me through this right now, im proud of the way i handled it...i have changed because the old me would have kicked him in the balls and pushed the door open and went down that hall and god knows what....
I walked away and did not turn around to look back...
but tonight the boys have gone to bed and now im finally alone with it,
its going to be a long night...lots of thoughts and images in my head, and just keep saying "i NEVER thought he would do this"...not in a million years. and I keep seeing the smile on his face as he opened the door....how did i get here????