alcoholic H decided he wants D

[imthemom]

tomorrow i have a truck to go and get the rest of my stuff out of the house with a few of my friends...I had planned on taking the bed, and he knew that...i picked it out and love it, it cost a lot of money and i still want it, just not the mattresses....umm obviousley... but they are temperpedic mattresses that cost quite a bit, i want to leave them on the floor and pour what ever i can find in the house on them, yes that is childish and immature...so i prob wont do it, but i want to.
I think the shock is wearing off tonight, feel sick every time i think about it, and cant stop crying. now that i know its really over it is hitting pretty hard. and the fact that he has abandoned us for someone else is so painfull. I had hopes that we would get threw this until i saw that purse on my couch....obviousely this is a relationship that is important to him, more important then us...