Originally Posted By: UW92
After many years of physical neglect I had an affair that lasted 3 years.


There is your first problem blaming your W for YOUR AFFAIR.


Originally Posted By: UW92

In the last 4 years my wife has made a total lifestyle change and lost a lot of weight and now goes to the gym 4 days a week. She's gained a ton of self-confidence.


Good for her.

Originally Posted By: UW92

Over the last few years I've started to realize how much she means to me, and how stupid I was.


Why did it take you so long?


Originally Posted By: UW92

Now she has dropped the D bomb and says that she doesn't love or respect me anymore. She says there is no one else and I believe her. We still get along quite well and are friendly with each other, and she wants to get a collaborative divorce. I have told her repeatedly that I want to keep our marriage and family (kids 16 & 11) together.


She married a man who had an LTA and still blames his W for it.

Originally Posted By: UW92

She has totally been sucked into the Divorce Trap. She thinks everything will be just swell if we split our family up. I started reading The Divorce Recovery the other day and understand I need to start the "last resort" method.


She has every right to D you.

Originally Posted By: UW92

My question is, how to I work on my 180 at the same time she keeps wanting to talk to me about moving forward with the collaborative divorce? What do I say to her when she keeps trying to push me to agree on a divorce?
Please help.



You had an A, you need to own that. One of the consequences of having an A is that your BS might D you.


IMO I don't know if there is a whole bunch you can do at this stage. Your W has probably left the M for quite some time.

This might be a case where you end up D and reconcile later after she starts to see some serious changes in you.

Your M slipped back into the pre A state b/c you two never properly addressed the conditions that led to the A and you took your sweet time in ending didn't help matters.

Not too many M recover from a LTA

Pick up the books, find a good IC and start to work on yourself.


Me:29 WW:26
No kids
2 dogs
T: 11 M: 2
D-day 1: 08/2010 D-day 2: 05/2011
1 POSOM
Separated: 06/2011
WW ILY commits to M 9/18
Files D 9/19
ILY Still 9/21
WW are fun