After many years of physical neglect I had an affair that lasted 3 years.
There is your first problem blaming your W for YOUR AFFAIR.
Originally Posted By: UW92
In the last 4 years my wife has made a total lifestyle change and lost a lot of weight and now goes to the gym 4 days a week. She's gained a ton of self-confidence.
Good for her.
Originally Posted By: UW92
Over the last few years I've started to realize how much she means to me, and how stupid I was.
Why did it take you so long?
Originally Posted By: UW92
Now she has dropped the D bomb and says that she doesn't love or respect me anymore. She says there is no one else and I believe her. We still get along quite well and are friendly with each other, and she wants to get a collaborative divorce. I have told her repeatedly that I want to keep our marriage and family (kids 16 & 11) together.
She married a man who had an LTA and still blames his W for it.
Originally Posted By: UW92
She has totally been sucked into the Divorce Trap. She thinks everything will be just swell if we split our family up. I started reading The Divorce Recovery the other day and understand I need to start the "last resort" method.
She has every right to D you.
Originally Posted By: UW92
My question is, how to I work on my 180 at the same time she keeps wanting to talk to me about moving forward with the collaborative divorce? What do I say to her when she keeps trying to push me to agree on a divorce? Please help.
You had an A, you need to own that. One of the consequences of having an A is that your BS might D you.
IMO I don't know if there is a whole bunch you can do at this stage. Your W has probably left the M for quite some time.
This might be a case where you end up D and reconcile later after she starts to see some serious changes in you.
Your M slipped back into the pre A state b/c you two never properly addressed the conditions that led to the A and you took your sweet time in ending didn't help matters.
Not too many M recover from a LTA
Pick up the books, find a good IC and start to work on yourself.
Me:29 WW:26 No kids 2 dogs T: 11 M: 2 D-day 1: 08/2010 D-day 2: 05/2011 1 POSOM Separated: 06/2011 WW ILY commits to M 9/18 Files D 9/19 ILY Still 9/21 WW are fun