Since the beginning of your sitch, you've had alot of anger that's never been addressed. Are you seeing a C? Not for your M but for your anger issues.

I think that's what needs to be tackled first.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER