Originally Posted By: cam
I hate myself and blame myself for everything that's gone wrong and the situation we are in.


It's not all your fault, you know that, it takes two. You can be for damn sure that there are things on her end that she wishes she would have done differently......just b/c she doesn't express them, validate them for you, doesn't mean she isn't thinking about it.
Originally Posted By: cam

I can't seem to forgive myself and move on.


Can I ask you whats the longest time you went w/o talking to your W?

These interactions w/ her......are not helping you.

Originally Posted By: cam

I can't believe I miss her so much, if I had known this pain, I would have been the best most loving husband I could have been, instead of the jerk I was.


No one is perfect, we all have flaws, guys are notorious for being insensitive aholes.......and you being the most loving husband...wouldn't have mattered if she didn't understand her part as well.
Originally Posted By: cam

I don't think I would do anything drastic, but it does cross my mind. I just want this to end, but i know this wound will never heal.
It's that old saying, you don't know what you had until you lose it. And i lost the best thing that ever happened to me.


You loved before.....you can love again........time will heal you.......but for now you need to get off the roller coaster, that is why you feel the way you do.

No contact w/ the W for a bit okay.......I would say at the minimum 4 weeks.....I assure you.....if your able to do that.......you will think much clearer.

You will start to see stuff differently

Hang in there.


Me:29 WW:26
No kids
2 dogs
T: 11 M: 2
D-day 1: 08/2010 D-day 2: 05/2011
1 POSOM
Separated: 06/2011
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