Being there, Doing that, and Unfotunately getting the T-shirt. I realized that by me stopping to look for others to fill that need and working on myself will help with that void. Keeping busy helps for me. I just remind myself that I would not want to hurt an innocent person. The funny thing is that before I met my W I got burned by a previous girlfriend and was in a F%^$%^ women type of attitude. I wanted nothing to do with them and was happy just working on me. Then like a lightning bolt She hit me. Its funny how we want to repeat the same patterns.
Same for me, I was ready to give up ever finding a lasting relationship.I was ready to just take off for a year and seek some kind of Spiritual growth, then Bamm! there she was, the woman of all my dreams. Seems to work that way, just when you let go of what you want, it comes looking for you. Even though now things look grim, I do not regret the 24 years we had, and if we do not reconcile I hope the Bamm! comes again, I really miss it.
