ron - thanks for stopping by - sorry i haven't been that available lately to help you thru your crisis. it means alot that you did stop by - i told you that the best way to get good at db'n is to start helping other people!!!
betsey - ah, well, an illustration i can use! thank you for that darlin, that makes perfect sense. since i cannot see the forest thru the trees, i will just continue to take ya'lls word for it
opt - very possible. but here is the thing opt, here he has a person that loves him thru all his faults and even this mess and he is not taking advantage of that love...oh well, just like kaw says, OCEAN LINER
kevin - thanks for stopping by - guilt, yeah, i know that well, been dealing with guilt for a long while - so i should try to be a little bit more understanding about it eh???
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POSITIVES
1) you will never guess what we did last night???? you guessed, oh how hard was that??? oh yes, another MOVIE - LOL - this one was pretty intense and he actually let me get a little close to him at times cause i was a bit scared
2) went to sunday bible meeting together as a family yesterday, interesting topics and will share in my journaling, just what i needed to hear
3) wanted me to watch him play video game again - what is with all this time he wants me to spend with him???
4) wanted me to start another grocery list, guess he is staying for another week! LOL
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just journaling (kinda biblical so if it offends anyone i am sorry)
ok, had a long discussion with t2 yesterday morning about my dreams. they have been pretty wicked as of late. it seems tho that after i have my dreams things are happening during the day that become pretty FREAKY
t2 helped me to understand that my dreams are just my insecurities coming out, my fears, real or imagined.
with this california trip i am planning it seems that i am having most of these dreams because that is the life that i left behind, and now i have to go and face it headon
there was a part in our bible study meeting yesterday that pretty much fit my sitch...
the topic was to keep silent and wait longingly - from a scripture in ps 37:7 - it talked about waiting on god because he works in his own time. that now is th time to avoid rash acts that can rob us of our joy and spiritual security.
now is the time to resist ever more strongly the corrupting influence of satan's world.
we need to constantly banish immoral thoughts and avoid unseemly acts toward those of the opposite or indeed, the same sex which was a thought taken from col 3:5
based on my dream the night before last (dreamt of the girl that i almost spent the rest of my life with) i felt like god was talking straight to me -
satan is working overtime and i have to watch his influence and how he directs my thinking, even in my slumber, and i have to realize what that is, just dreams, just fears manifesting themselves
so even god himself is telling me to wait patiently...
