Thanks, JB. In some ways I do think I am starting to detach from his emotions. Especially when I am attacked for no reason. I was able to not react, but geez, do I really deserve to be treated that way? I love him, I miss him and I still want to reconcile- but not with the person he is right now. This is not the guy I fell in love with.
Last night I did some great GALing with some girlfriends, lots of fun. One of them, incidentally, is something of a WAS. She is unhappy with her H, says she has been the entire duration of her marriage. She is also cheating on him with an old friend.
She actually asked me if I would consider 'one on the side'. I told her no, definitely not. Told her I still loved my h, and that I couldn't do that to someone. She also told me that my H probably has one on the side as well based on the details and I guess she would know! I kind of knew that, but it still sux hearing it.
I'm hoping her hearing how much it hurt me to think my H is cheating will make her rethink her own situation. It did remind my how oblivious some people are to the hurt they inflict.
As much fun as we had last night, I can't help but be a little bummed this morning thinking about that part.
