I think that is a big part of it. I think being a dad is harder than he expected. When he left he made the comment that he loves our son but that kids are hard and he dosnt want anymore. wtf? Im like who r you? Big tough cop. Running away from you wife and child because its not easy? Weak!!! Im not sure what his real reasons are. He deflicts everything. I expect he will never tell me. I just cant believe this. Nobody would have ever seen this coming. If he really is "done" and never comes back how in the h**L could i ever trust anyone again. I never thought having a child would cause a reaction like this. Im so sad. i miss my h. I miss our friendship. i miss waking up next to him. I used to wait up for him until he would get home from work. i miss the intamacy. i miss being "married" and a wife.
