deb - why does everyone see progress and i don't??? i guess cause i live with this day to day and it doesn't seem to be going anywhere
totite - yeah, been lots of movie watching lately, really don't understand it. i don't comprehend why he wants to spend time with me, be nice to me, yet withhold sex - it's like i am being punished for the indescritions of HIS - that just doesn't make any sense - oh well
t2 - oh yeah, TWO last night, oh my goodness, he is really crimping my style
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POSITIVES
1) hubby wanted me to watch TWO movies with him last night, one was NOT enough, so i spent my whole evening watching movies
2) hubby cooked the entire dinner last night, grilled salmon, asparagus, and mushrooms, yum yum - i went ga ga over it!!!
3) wanted to bake cookies really bad last night, so he asked, if i help can we bake some cookies, so we were both in the kitchen last night baking cookies, dang, he is addicted to those cookies
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just journaling
like i said to totite, i am in the frame of mind lately that i am being punished for my husband's indescritions - why is it that he won't be intimate with me???
i really have to get over this because it is consuming my life, i have to drop the rope on this one - i have to act "as if" - as if i will never get any again
oh well, not really ready for a pity party this morning
