Just don't understand...

[tjb54]

Journaling....

Here are a few highlights and food for thought. Yesterday I had a 10am appointment to retain a lawyer. He is one of three that I've interviewed with and choose this guy. The way W seems to be pushing/fast tracking this thing, it's totally possible to be finalized by 11/3. This is something that I can't allow to happen. I told my lawyer to stall, whatever it takes. He's thinking maybe to stipulate a condition of 30-60 days before I move out. Not sure if it's the way I'm wanting to pursue this though. W is sure to be pissed off at this option as she wants me out asap. Another Ace in my pocket is fact that we haven't told the kids as of yet. Yes, it's kind of using them as pawns, but not in a way that will hurt them in any way. Not likely that a judge will force me out asap when the kids aren't in the know. Mrs. Selfish (a mental reference I sometimes use when thinking about W) has an 11am appointment to attend the required IL. parenting class. It's suppose to be 4 hrs long. I'll be bring up this topic later on. So my meeting with my Lawyer ends and I rush home to be with S5(It's his Birthday today by the way!!) so Mrs.S can leave.

Noon arrives and I decide to take my little buddy to lunch and then to the archery store to get some arrow fletched. Anywho, we stop to eat lunch at TGIF. I told the lady about his birthday and after our lunch they came and did the whole singing thing and boy was S5 ever embarrassed. He went under the table after they were done singing. He got a free sundae out of it though. Well, I did anyway cause he didn't want it.

So, after that we ran to Walmart which is just across the street. As we pulled in, there was this girl walking into Walmart that stopped and waved. It was my W. Keep in mind that the IL. Kids class thing is a 4 hour class and it is now 1:30pm. I pull into a parking space and W is waiting by the entrance. I say, "4 hour class eh?". She tells me that there were only 2 in the class and the instructor gave them the option of leaving with credit for staying the whole 4 hours. I'm thinkng B.S., but I really don't care. At this point I believe nothing that she says and only 50% of what I see. We go in together and shop together. Picked up some Pumkins for each kid, Halloween cupcakes and laundry stuff. We separate in the store so she can get S5's birthday presents. I head to the pet section to get dogfood. W them tells me that she's gonna meet a friends mother for lunch and will be home later. I'm thinking B.S. on this as well. Whatever....

The drive back home is about 20 mins or so. S5 had the Ipad, so I had some thinking time on my mind. I'm thinking when is my realtor going to call back on that property I'm looking at. I'm thinking, I can't wait to get out. Not away from the kids, just away from this situation. I'm thinking about my earlier talk with Lawyer. I'm thinking about a talk that I had with my sister earlier in the week. Reality starting to kick in hard and I'm feeling a little relief, peace, or maybe sanity. Anyway, here's where it gets a little wierd for me.......



Timewarp back to my break up back in 98' with an EXGF. Anyway, the night EXGF broke it off with me, I drove home all heartbroken and whatnot. As I was driving past the VFW in my hometown at the time, a song starts playing on the radio. It was Green Day and the song was 'Time of Your Life'. The words fit my situation at the time perfectly. So much so, that I bought the damn CD and damn near wore it out playing that song.



........back to my ride home........

Yup you guessed it! Green Day - Time of Your Life starts playing just at the appropriate time. Coincidence....? I think not.


Ended the day with S5's lil Bday party! Good time! Six Halloween cupcakes with candles in 5 of them! Happy as heck with a
coloring book, a PS2 game, a Wii game & two packs of his favorite M&M's. The ones with the pretzels in the center.....