Hi tested metal, Well Just wanted to say you're not the only one that is up at 2 a.m. with their minds churning! I hate it because I have to get up at 4 a.m. I will crash and fall asleep for 3 - 4 hours and sleep great. Then I wake up and my mind is churning.
So it looks like you've recently just been separated. I've only been separated 6 months, and at times it still feels so brand new. Some advice, don't push yourself too hard in regards to your emotions and what you're feeling. We all want to because the emotions are really tough and it's just not a mood, it's something that sticks for a while. Im glad you looked into antidepressants.
I did the same thing over dating sites. I signed up and canceled several times. I had one up and cancelled yesterday. I have another one where I think I've made a pen pal, but other than that Im just not intersted. I gave him my email and told him Im going to cancel. Remember we're very vulnerable right now. Someone just to soothe the lonliness, help us to feel loveable again, and boost our self esteem is all what rebound relationships are. I don't ever want to hurt anyone else the way I've been hurt, so Im working on me being ready for a real relationship.
