I am happy that you are having success in your work life. It doesn't define you, but it sure is nice to be appreciated, right?
Your feelings of longing make good sense and are something that I think you should feel good about. I would try to savor those feelings and appreciate that you aren't numb. Honor yourself for having these desires and appreciate them.
I wouldn't act on those feelings though (at least not right now). I know you won't.
What does the ring mean for you? Do you feel better seeing yourself as still honoring your marriage in spite of your wife's decision?
Obviously the ring is symbolic, so I wonder what that symbolism is for you at this point?
M: 32 W: 29 T: 9 Years M: 4 Years I hit rock bottom: 2/11 PA admitted: 4/11 WAW: 5/11 D filed: 6/11 now: Patience, wisdom, and growth - hopefully.