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i got so tied up in my own SELF PITY yesterday i let myself down on my POSITIVES for the day...UGH

so today that means i have to post at least 6 to make up for them!!!

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thanks everyone for checking in on me, {pib, sage, kaw, kim, blair, mockers and ud}

blair, do you have a thread somewhere? i would LOVE to come and visit YOU! thanks for the continued CHECK UP on me

ok peeps, the feeling passed yesterday - but i gotta tell you that it was hard yesterday, seems like everything came crashing at once...lemmie chronical...

first - night before last i had this awful dream about hubby's first EA - i dreamt i confronted her about the EA and she came out with much more that had happened between them - it was one of those dreams that leaves you feeling yuck when you wake up in the morning

ok, so i dismissed it as leftover remnants of ickyness - but then something really strange happened

hubby calls me around noon and tells me, when it rains it pours...i said, oh no what NOW??? - he proceeds to tell me that he CALLED this EA GIRL because of a situation with his post office box (they shared - long story, but i knew) and about his cell phone (which she had gotten for him a few years ago - another long story, but i was ok with both of these things)

i was like, ok - he says to me, well things came to a head about the po box and i felt the need to break ALL connections with this her so whlie i had her on the phone after taking care of the po box thing, i told her to get the phone out of her name as well

so he tells me, after this, there is no connection i have with her

i just listen, validate and take it all in - but all the while the dream is in the back of my head - so a little bit of runaway thinking occurs, but i try to stop it, after all - he CALLED me to TELL me these things, no way i could find them out

ok...so i leave well enough alone - then around 3 - hubby's mother calls me to check in, and she tells me that hubby's sister has met up with this woman over the weekend and a mutual function and they talked.

ok, so this blows my mind - two instances of this girl in my life right after the dream - now i am NOT ONE who believes in premonitions but this was a little too freaky for words

i ended up feeling really icky about the whole thing the rest of the day. when hubby came home, he could tell something was wrong, but i didn't say anything - went to our bible study meeting last night and felt much better afterwards

thanks goes to deb for advising me not to approach hubby about it, cause i don't think it would have been good - he came to me with his talk, i should be happy with that

like i said feeling much better today!!!

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POSITIVES

1) hubby came to me to tell me about phone call he had made to first ea

2) hubby is gonna at least be here another week, he went grocery shopping last night and asked me to make him a list yesterday - so he is including me in his plans

3) KIDS ARE BACK TO SCHOOL TODAY AND ALL WELL

4) at 10pm last night he wanted to watch a movie with me, but i told him put something in i have seen cause i got to get up early for the kids - and if i fall asleep i wont feel like i missed anything - so he did and i watched half and fell asleep

5) got my entire list done yesterday, made my list up for today, and have already done a good load of it! gotta keep up with the eat that frog thing...ugh, i need to put that on my list - doing this list thing the night before is wonderful

6) i spent some REAL quality time with daughter - my goal for this month for her is to teach her to write her numbers - she just turned 4 - and she was on her threes yesterday - poor little thing, couldn't get the bottom part of the three to ever work for herself (eventually she did) but she never lost patience in trying, THIS is the part of life i LOVE