Looking for the silver lining...

[AntoniaB]

IB you are kind and vulnerable in every interaction you have with others on this board. I bet you never thought of that, did you? I agree with Bea...the tough skin you do have is a form of protection. I know my doctor and I talked about that before and she said it was necessary until you don't feel you need it anymore. It just "is". Don't judge yourself for having it. Be grateful you are protecting your feelings while they are still so raw. But also realize that you let your guard down all over the place here, and so you haven't lost that ability at all.