Finally confronted H on affair...Now what????

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The hardest thing for me...
I feel like my H is two completely different people right now. Sometimes he is caring, honest, compassionate and nice. Others I feel like I am talking to a complete stranger that is completely detached and uninterested and unaffected by anything that related to his previous life (me and the kids).

Sometimes I believe I am imagining things. When he is nice, I feel guilty and think that maybe I am letting friends and well-intentioned family to influence me and I start questioning his motives. But then I remind myself of his actions. Actions speak louder than words, and I have to remind myself that his actions are saying what he really cares about right now.

And then I get an email like the one he sent me today and the whole cycle starts again...

I think I am losing my mind.