Your woe is real. Your experience is real. And you have serious kind stuff going on.
I'm not kidding about breathing.
But you are in overdrive. Try to just relax. Don't worry about your inputs (the board, your ex, your child, etc). Don't worry about your outputs (the things you give to each of these). Right in this moment, just be. Just be Lila. Just take care of yourself for a moment.
Just for a moment remember who you were, who you are, and what's good about you. You might not get a long time, but just take a few moments. They are precious.
If you can make yourself do it every day or even once a week, you'll be ahead of most folks.
