I said a small "YES!" when I read the part about the house payments, lol.
I know what you mean about the whole "when will this be over". I think I never truly had a difficult thing happen in my life before "this" because I don't believe that I ever asked myself that question about anything. But I guess the thing to focus on is that it WILL be over someday...and it might crop up from time to time, the sadness or pain, but it will be so fleeting. It is really over, in a way. By far the worst is very much over. What we're dealing with now is fallout. Kind of like when your yard gets destroyed in a bad storm and just when you think you have it all cleaned up, you find some other messy area ;-) Your PTSD thing is a very good analogy too. I'm glad you're enjoying your new home, though, and glad to hear you're taking control of your Halloween plans!
M45 Bomb 6/09; EA 6/10; Divorced 1/11 Proud single mom of 7 little feline girls and one little feline boy "Fall down 53 times. Get up 54." -- Zen saying