Finally confronted H on affair...Now what????

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Wed
This is the email I sent H after our argument last night..

"H,
I apologize for getting upset this evening. I got frustrated because I felt that you were not listening to me and we were just repeating conversations we had previously had since earlier that evening, regarding various topics - girls' swimming class, me going back to work and maritza's firing). I also felt, based on one of your questions earlier, like you didn't even read my email earlier today.

The truth is that I felt hurt and rejected, like you just don't care about what I have to say and you just zone me out. Not that you do it on purpose, but just because what I tell you doesn't have any importance or mean anything to you so you just don't register it. It makes me feel worthless and invisible and that is why I got upset and lashed out.

I also felt hurt because I felt like you were not showing any empathy for my phone being dead or the fact that I got rejected on the credit card application. I felt like you were just trying to get out of here in a hurry and I was not thinking that you were probably tired and that you had already stayed late enough as a favor for me. So I am sorry about that too. I do truly appreciate you staying late tonight and I am mad at myself for not only not showing any gratitude, but blowing it. Besides, my "bad news" are not your problems, and the truth is that they are pretty petty if I think about them more objectively, so I am sorry.

It probably sounds to you like a broken record when I apologize, but I now always try not only to analyze our interactions when our communication breaks down, but to see my faults in them so I can improve in the future. I am sorry I hurt you again."