You have sent letters in the past with poor results. The key thing here is that you have to show instead of tell. You must prove through action that you are changing yourself for the better, and have a new approach to the relationship. That said, it can often make you feel better to write the letter. If so, write it but do not send it. Look at what you wrote in a week and see if you still want to send it.
With your church situation, it sounds like your H was abusive. Tell us more about the history of your M. What do you like best about your H? What do you like least? What were the sources of friction in your M?
Stay strong, the best thing you can do right now is give space and work on you.
Accuray
Married 18, Together 20, Now Divorced M: 48, W: 50, D: 18, S: 16, D: 12 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 7/13/11 Start Reconcile: 8/15/11 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 5/1/2014 (Divorced) In a New Relationship: 3/2015
