new to this..

[learning2listen]

so today is a very difficult one, I have found the pain to be increasing rather then decreasing, lunch last week was nice, and to my knowledge nothing has happened to him to make him angry or aggitated.. but he has definately withdrawn again. I can feel it. I am not a priority, we talked about having lunch today and I have heard nothing, he leaves tomorrow for an out of town meeting.

I feel like too much time is passing with out him around and he will soon replace me. I feel depressed. I honestly dont know how to continue just acting like this is no big deal.


He has not acted as though this is at all affecting him with the exception of saying he misses the kids. He is not using cruel words anymore he is just silent to me.

I am tired of trying to hold it together, I see the changes I am making and some are good, some on the other hand, are just plain not me.