WHG - as awful as this must be for you I think you have to mentally detach and think in terms of your life going forward w/o her. I say this out of compassion for you and the fact that I am living the same nightmare as you. It'' weird but you can want the M to work out but start to look forward to a new life at the same time. You deserve to be happy and fulfilled!
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Married - 24 yrs, both first time Bomb dropped - March 2011 living in same home, separate room EA discovered - April 2011 three sons - 23,21 and 13.