Do I stay or do I go?

[anyhope]

thanks again.. Well what choice do I have but to keep it together, or at least try to. I did manage to fail the exam I took for the third time so clearly I don't really have it all together as this is just unbelievable, but if you know my story you know what I'm really going through.

I was always an independent person (somewhat) so that helps me a lot to now take things better but I still had to find a suitable place to live on a budget with a dog.. What can I say.. It wasn't easy. Now I'm pretty happy, not with the apartment but at least the location.. God willing I can buy a condo next year or at least get a nicer apartment with a bedroom and balcony.. But now this is what I can or what I'll try to manage on my own, I hope to finish school in the next 8 months otherwise I'm in deep trouble, and what I really need is some time to do it without thinking about what h and ow are doing. And it's just plain disrespectful really.I read a lot in the midlife crisis section and it's amazing how similar my story is to those and how I'm still at the beginning of this whole mess.. Am I ready to go on with this for years? No not really. Our marriage was pretty bad by the end so I was hoping for a change for months before the bomb, well I got my change all right, but if that's what it takes then be it.

My husbands ex..it was a long time goof his.. I don't really know the story but Im pretty sure she left him.. Not really sure why or what happened.. My husband is from a troubled family, he attcually lost his whole immediate family one after the other by the time he was 20 So he was troubled as a young guy, drank, did drugs and the ex is a smart and educated girl and I think she didnt appreciate that kind of behavior. She has a family of her own now..

Anyways we will see how we progress.. A week from now I'll be at the new apartment, ow will most likely be here, and I'm sure I'll be a mess and updating