Back home - but for how long?

[NYCPeter]

Thanks for the advice.
I have this sense of guilt that I snooped - yet in the grand scheme of things, I'm not sure why I should be the party feeling guilty.

I eneded up staying late at work and came home an hour ago. W was in bed reading a magazine, we had a chat about the girls and about why I was working late. I almost laughed when she said - "sorry you had such a stressful day", well erm - you caused it.

I didn't talk about it - I do want to think this over. The convo above makes it clear something that happened 10 days ago and obviously happened in the past aswell. Why is she trying to be "more than friends with a crazy person". I always said if she had an A I would terminate the M, not because of the A - but because of the constant lies and blaming me and that "she was trying" - she obviously wasn't trying too hard.

I've gone from being worried whether I receive D papers to being totally ambivelent about it. Why she's giving this up so she can sleep with someone nicknamed "C-Dawg" is beyond my comprehension. Giving up M, giving up stability for our children. Why do her friends support her? I know my friends would "rip me a new one". Even if she wanted to reconcile, why should I.

Oh well - likely won't see her until Sat (soccer tomorrow, working late Thurs night), so at least that gives me time to think.