This kid is so overtired, she woke up the other morning (sunday - my day with her) and I was like "Want to go to the park?" And she was like, 'No." So I drove to my mom's instead, and she was falling asleep in the car on the way there at 10 am and miserable looking.
The night before, she fell asleep in exBF's car at 6 pm. Most nights, she looks like she can pass out at 6. I hate that.
It's why I just really want to get to a place where I don't rely on exBF. A place I can afford. And focus on giving her a good routine. And just get the help I need so I can be stable and stable for her.
he's her dad, he wants an R with her - I want him to have an R with her - but most of the time it feels like he's doing more harm than good. And at least for right now, she's going to need some transitions that work toward staiblity - not more and more and more and more changes like she's been undergoing for months and months.
That's what I see in him, him wanting her to conform to what he wants, and when she doesn't he gets mad. He took her to his place twice and both times were disastrous and he didn't try it again, and hasn't brought it up or overnights or talked about it - I think he gets now that it's more stressful for her than worth it. But if I tried to tell him that - which I did - I have three heads.
Eh. Sorry for venting. I just would love a female single mom roommate in a place that I can afford (meaning, really afford, not barely afford) and a lovely space, and someone to share with (maybe each of us do dinner two nights a week or something) and to pay debt, and build my business back up and take care of my daughter.
