Starting Over

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of course you live your life. why is it all or nothing with you?

I'm not sure, Ken. This feels pretty accusatory. Is there a reason for that. I'm not sure, simply because I never said it was all or nothing; I think you might be putting words in my mouth, and I don't like the direction this is going already.

but you continuously discuss how you're running everywhere, doing 20 things at once, then complain of being tired.

Actually, I only complain of being tired when I stay up all night with D. I've been surprisingly really energized by all I do.

that you dont have the time to get anything done.

That's fair, but I don't remember saying this. Or what I said that led you to believe this. I'm getting quite a lot done, quite honestly.

of course you're tired, of course things are falling through the cracks. you choose to do too much. and everything suffers. this is your choice.

and doing too much is a technique thats used to prevent themselves from dealing with the things that are hard. cant do the hard stuff because "i'm too busy, i just dont have the time", its a distraction, a procrastination technique

I've heard of this, but that doesn't apply to me. I'm a conscientious and introspective person; I think what you're talking about is someone trying to avoid by doing. I have plenty of still moments in my life and I look within and "check in" with my body, my emotions, a lot.

What am I procrastinating?

and now its the babysitter saying he's overwhelmed? why not say the truth from the beginning?

Wait. What? This feels accusatory again. I'm not sure what's happening here.


and kml, i'm a father, i understand why people put their kids to bed. i'm not an idiot. theres normal sleep schedules, and there unrealistic sleep schedules. i categorize hers as unrealistic. i dont understand her constant need to force the kid to bed when she's obviously not tired. and then complain for months about it. she's doing more damage than good. but blames the xbf for it.

the staying up till 6am is because the xbf locked the kid in the room. the struggle they have putting her to bed, which she has discussed for the entire time she's been here, is because they're forcing the kid to go to bed before she's tired. either its too early, or the kid isnt getting enough exercise during the day.


I'm sorry, once again i made the mistake of posting. too frustrating for me, the changing stories, the feigning of ignorance, again, sorry lilagirl, i dont have patience for this. [/quote]