jan - don't worry about the assignments, i am posting these here mainly for a reminder to myself, because i have only borrowed the book from the library, so this is to help me!!!! (and whoever else likes it!)
deb - HIYA girlfriend!!! YA YA
mal - that's just it mal, i haven't seen him in AGES, why he would show up in my dreams????
rachel - you are doing SO WELL rachel!!! congrats on you finding your way, i am doing the same thing and it feels DEVINE
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POSITIVES
1) weird conversation yesterday while i was driving the boys to charlotte...i was talking with my sister and she has been begging me for the last 3 months to come to california to help with her daughter who is getting major surgery and has 6 kids - she wants me to come for 4 weeks
she was laying a pretty hefty guilt trip on me, and luckily before it got too heated we lost connection. i sat there and cried for about 10 minutes, not knowing who in the world i could call to help me thru this. so i broke down and called my husband
i was still in tears and i told him, h, i just really need a friend right now, he said, k, i am here, i told you i was here for you, what happened. so i told him the story and he very calmly and very logically talked to me for about 30 minutes.
i wont bore you all with the details, but, he said "k, i will miss you and daughter terribly, but i think you should go" - he will miss me???? thru me for a loop!!!!
2) ate chicken wings and watched indiana jones last night, just had general fun together
3) he is not backing off my touches the last three days, which is nice - i have patience i can wait (oh, remind me of these words!!!)
