I will Kitti, thanks. I'm gonna need moral support from my DBing friends. This is a major change for me, this giving up control of the R.
The thing I finally realized it...I don't have control at all! If I did, H would be home with me, right?
Thanks to Mattie and others on here, I realize I'm driving myself CRAZY with the way I've been dead set on trying to get things done MY WAY.
I need to step back, and take care of ME for once.
If I let go and he leaves, I can live with that.(sigh) Hopefully though he'll come back to me. He's never asked me for a D. I think he wants our M, but his thinking is messed up and I can't fix that.
He'll have to find his OWN way back to me. Rachael
