All I know is that something switched in my last night. I'm ready to move to the next stage.
It's sad. We have so much here - D and I. Our neighbors and neighborhood; so much has come together beautifully in the past month. An old friend I reconnected with last weekend - walks we want to go on - my great upstairs neighbor - the moms across the street. The library and all its kids programs down the street, the YMCA where I work out and D has class (all walking distance). My sitter, my back up sitter, my church. It's a real community for me.
I know we'll be okay no matter what happens. I value stability so much now for her and I. I'm tired of being in survival/crises mode - things go well for a week - when I am getting sleep at night (i.e. exBF is here, which is obviously not a long-term solution) I am *golden* - I'm happy, energetic, positive, networking, making things happen - but ... the sleeping has been an issue for 2 years. And I don't know why it would change now.
