Finally confronted H on affair...Now what????

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Sunday - H was MIA - he always is when OW is in town. Spent the day with the kids and had a good time. The girls miss their daddy so much... they constantly ask about him. D2 mentions things or events in which H has participated...

At night, both girls wake up at least once crying - sometimes they ask where daddy is and sometimes they ask to sleep in my bed. And the little one is still not sleeping thru the night.

So for me, nights are definitely the toughest... Seeing my kids struggle, being sleep-deprived, and knowing that I am dealing with all of it alone. H has no clue how nights go in our house. I never tell him - he will think I am trying to make him feel guilty and he won't believe me anyways. He always comments how happy the kids are with him and seems surprised that they would be having a hard time.

OTOH - During the day, things are better. I continue working on myself and I think I have come a long way. When he first left, I would cry all the time when I was alone - shower, driving, in my room, anywhere. Sometimes I would even need to get away from people, or the kids or go to the bathroom at work to cry. Now I find that I cry only two or three times a day. And I also find myself enjoying some things. I am also eating better and looking forward to certain things, whereas when H left, I could not even think of anything besides my situation. So yes, I have come A LONG WAY.

More to go, but it's true - time does help heal...