Back home - but for how long?

[NYCPeter]

I'm fighting to stay married, but I keep putting my foot in it.
I know I have to stop drinking - it's not like I drink excessively, it just makes me lose focus and lossens my lips.

I am a fool - everything is going fine then I have to put my foot in it. I really want to shoot myself right now. I've given her every reason to file if she hasn't done so already.

I need to focus on me (repeat, repeat, repeat)....
I want to be giving updates where we're in status quo rather than the idiotic things I do.