new to this..

[luvhurts49]

I am in the same boat L2L. My brain has never been able to shut off, which has made me such a great problem solver and is great for my line of work, but when it comes to R and my own M, it is a complete nightmare.

And because I have this uncontrollable need to talk to my friends and family about how I am feeling, I am slowly loosing my friends because they are getting tired of hearing about it and they are tired of seeing me so depressed, unhappy, and at may times, unstable. I try to keep up appearances for my kids (when I have them), but it is hard because when I see them, I think of my W and that starts the whole unhappy stage again.

I have never been a very outgoing person even though a couple of my friends are. When I am able to get out with my friends, I usually do not have a very good time because I either don't know how or because I'm thinking of my W.

I wish I knew where to start L2L, because I would like to know as well. Unfortunately, I live in a smaller town where there isn't much to do besides going to the bar and I'm not into the whole bar scene.