Saw a sign the other day. Said Screw your past; don't let it screw you (similar to that; I paraphrased. The word they used rhymes with truck).
Made me laugh.
I'm sure I have to thaw a bit towards her. I try, but sometimes wonder when is it my turn with this dynamic. Then I remember that I don't want a turn in the crazy house. That I just want to be me. To be left alone. I remember that I have to be the one to stop how she treats me because it won't otherwise.
That's the part that reminds me she made me her enemy. I doubt I'll ever know why, and I've long ago given up trying to find out. But I do know she has. I can't live that way (hating somebody). That would kill me to hate somebody that way.
Instead, I wish her well. I really do. I did (and do) love her. Just differently. I wish her the best in her future paths. I sometimes wish she'd just leave me alone and stop trying to hurt and be petty. But that's not reality so I go back to my previous - it's up to me.
I'm not sure, but I think you're right Kat. I'll try to thaw a bit, but I have no intentions of talking to her personally. She has my email address. She can talk all she wants and I do respond. That was thawing for me.
Thanks for posting. AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
