Accuray, thanks for the response. You r kinda like a little life line for me. I was thinking of writing him a letter expressing my regret for my wrongs in the relationship and telling him that im growing as a person. Also, telling him that i wish things could be different but i will respect his choice, and that i am moving on with my life. I will always have a hope for reconciliation but that the ball is in his court so to speak. I think that it is a good message that he should hear but i dont think he will take it that way. He found out that i went to church today and left our son with my mom for an hour, who he dosnt like, and he sent me a very nasty text saying he has a huge problem w/ that and what the f*** was i thinking. I stayed calm and said that it was only 4 an hour while i was at church and that she would never smoke with him there. that was all i said and he responded did i trust her? i didnt answer. im not sure the purpose of all this i feel like he watches my every move to see if there is anything he could critize me on and then jumps all over it.
