Okay, I'm trying ro stay hopeful. Yesterday I went to a pumpkin farm with my s and inlaws. They are very supportive of me. Had a really good time and took lots of happy pics which i shared on fb. Today i went to church by myself, which is something i wouldnt normally do, right before our split i had been bugging him to go as a family. I felt like the message in church was for me. It talked about love and how you should be loving in christs image. Love w/o expactions back basically. Also, I have been praying about my sitch and have come to realize what I have done to contribute to this. I nagged ALOT. Also, I said things to him in the lasts months that were really wrong and didnt mean but said out of frustration from him distancing. I said you are making me hate you and that i resented him for not making more money so i could stay home with the baby. I also pushed him about things. How can I make him understand how sorry I am for these things and that i am changing and wouldnt do them again. I just wish he would see how it could be sooo much better. I got a new job that has much better hours and found a really good babysitter. Things could be okay if he would just try. I know u are not susposed to R talk or anything so how can i convey these things?
