Yep.........I'm still here

[~¤DG¤~]

I've been seeing a T for nearly a year now, and we discuss this all the time.
Her biggest advice to me has been to live in the moment and try to be happy with or without my H.

I love my H, and I miss him unbearably at times.
It is those times that I have to force myself to remember that the only control I have over anyone is myself, and his journey is his journey.
Do I hope we can find our way back to one another? Absolutely. Do I think it will happen? I honestly don't know.

I try very hard to let go and let God and have faith that He knows what is best for me. I'm not doing anything inappropriate that I would be ashamed of at all. I've stayed true to my vows and will until the very end.

For the first time I am worrying about me and only me.