W and I ate dinner last night alone as D was on a school trip. Pretty weird time. This morning she tells me she is going to a horse show early as she is competing and that D does not want to go. I asked what kind of horse was it, she said "the horse show kind". So I STFU and said have a great day and good luck. There has been no crack in the iceberg. Been thinking why do I stay with someone who does not love me or wants to be with me. And I don't have an answer but I'm getting tired of the rejection. Yeap I have screwed up during our M but I have also been a good H and father most of the time. W still does cook breakfast and dinner, buys stuff that I like but I don't understand why she tells me where she is going? She does not need my permission and I don't need hers. In 3 weeks we go to court and don't know what to expect. I have said nothing about it. I guess we will see.
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
