I think W has noticed that I'm not feeling particularly friendly the last couple of days. I'm nice and smile, but I really don't feel like being friends at this moment. She's got some major cake-eating going on (I watch the kids, clean house, while she goes out) while mine is somewhat less (spend time with the kids, rent-free for the moment). I'm not quite sure how to proceed with this.
I know she'll be upset that I don't really want to be overly friendly with her, but I'm not sure if she'll understand why. She's said she has no interest in me, which appears to be true since she rarely asks me about anything regarding my life, but she still wants to tell me all about what's going on in her life. I'm kind of tired of hearing about it, to be honest. My interest in her has dropped to an all time low.
Just wondering how the rest of the year is going to play out. I want to keep comms strictly about the kids. I've traditionally been the talker in our M, but that's been less and less through this process. I think it's about to disappear for the most part. I hope she can understand and not think, as she's said before, that I'm just giving her the cold shoulder. I realize now that I was still holding onto some hope, keeping my distance while trying not to distance myself from her. After what she said at MC, I don't particularly care if I am distanced from her or not.
