That makes me incredibly sad VC...
I have a fear that my situation will turn out the same way. In 18 yrs I have never seen him the way he is now....I feel like I never knew him.
and I miss the man I knew so bad, i literally wish I could remove all memory of him. tonight is a bad night...

Me:48 H:42
M: 18 yrs.
S: 9/1/09 due to alcoholic H
D bomb: 9/9/11
OW confirmed 10/30/11
D papers filed 11/01/11
S15 S21(Special needs) S28

Look to yourself, It is there that all your answers are found...