Update. I feel a lot more peace and contentment. I'm working on me. I am getting that hunger back slowwwwwwwly.
Generally, things are really good. Job is falling into line. Getting better as time goes on.
Grandparents are aging. Working with my sister to get them squared away and I'll likely be taking a trip to Cali shortly to do some more and to see them and family.
Son and I are doing well. We're about to leave for the state fair. I'm looking for the fried bubble gum this year
I still get angry sometimes but not very much. I accept what happened but still don't like it. Not sure I will though..
My Daughter still doesn't talk to me, but it is what is. She's asserting her control in the way she knows how. I cleaned out her room the other day (finally) and ran across an old journal of hers. Broke my heart as it was around the bomb time frame. I didn't read much, but it was enough to get the idea. I try not to pry right?
Ex is a bit angry (shocker!) She seems upset I won't talk on the phone with her. I told her I could talk to her (I can) but can't think what we would talk about or why I would talk to her. She made me her enemy and dates OM. Wish her luck, but can't think why I would talk to her with the anger and such. She made me her enemy (not sure why) but wants what she wants I guess.
She sends me emails to collect money for the kids activities. In them, she asks if I'm going to "contribute" to the fees and such. That grates. The emails are about three times a week since the divorce. Kind of annoying, but has to be done. In the last one I responded that I'd love to share the expense she was asking about. Not sure she'll get the hint, but whatever. Needs to be done.
Outside of that, I'm recovering from a sports injury. Not much fun, but almost done with that thankfully.
Rest of the year is looking good. Almost paid off the debts on all but one card. Counsellor is paid as of next week. House is refinanced into my name. Storage is almost empty (weird that ex left her childhood skis in there along with family photos after she cleaned it out.) So generally, I'm finishing the aftermath cleanup and moving along. I am coming out of my shell and hanging out with friends again. Tomorrow is a party I'm looking forward to. I've been dating a little. That's been fun
Ramping up the church volunteer time. The holidays are a good time for that I think.
Peace to all of you.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."