Yeah...Now What?

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Hi KD-

Thanks for the response to my post.

I have been doing a lot of reflecting lately. For the most part I think I am doing very well for where I am at in my life, but I will admit that sometimes my thoughts will wander and think of him and feel such an intense pain of sadness, it takes everything in me not to weep.

Sometimes I do let the tears fall, and others I tell myself to be strong. Not that tears are a sign on weakness, I just get tired of crying.

I've gotten better at realizing the only thing I have control of is myself, and it's easier to go through out my day with that thought.

For the most part, my life is good. The kids & I spend a lot of time together, and when they are with their Dad I spend a lot of time with my friends, or sometimes with myself doing things I enjoy doing.
I have amazing, amazing friends who have been so supportive, they truly have become my family.

I spend time with my family also, but I don't discuss my sitch with them. I just prefer to keep it to myself. My family is dysfunctional on all sorts of levels (what family isn't?) and it's just easier for me to not talk with them.