Thanks JB. I think the wall analogy is my issue... I actually see a wall. And that wall looks so solid. When I think I see chips or very small, tiny even, ok micro-fractures let's call them and I look again they're gone. I could've swore they were there, but then we're right back to "when we're apart", "next year when I just won't have the money", "don't want to rely on you"...
ugh... ok, I'm whining, I'll shut up now. Thanks for the reply.
Married 6 together 8 Me:38 W:31 second marriage for both SS12, SD10, S6 Bomb: 9/8/11 (day before our 5 yr ann) W moved out: 2/18/12 D final: 11/12/12 Share S 50/50. Spend as much time as I can with SS & SD
and I look again they're gone. I could've swore they were there, but then we're right back to "when we're apart", "next year when I just won't have the money", "don't want to rely on you"... 
