C2H: All that you are feeling right now will change in time. You are still raw. I know how I felt in the first couple of years. Sure glad I don't feel like that now.
Only time will tell what will happen and how you will feel. But be true to yourself. Give yourself time to heal.
It's my impression that you are not ready to date. It just sounds like it from your posts. I know that I started before I was ready as well. And it did nothing for my healing.
I was lonely and sad. I finally joined a singles social group and it was really fun. Just times to get together with others - dinners, picnics, hiking, a movie. It was a good place to go to find myself and I really recommend it.
