Tel,
Have you read the book "from abandonment to healing"? Does a very good job of explaining why we continue to pine for the spouse that abandoned us, very interesting read recommended by someone here.

m 54
XW 48
m 12
t 14
bomb 6-11
s 10-11
wife moved to other state 10-21-11
d 9-12

O GOD THY SEA IS SO GREAT AND MY BOAT IS SO SMALL!