I hope you didn't think I was suggesting you entertain the thought of spending time with this woman, all I meant to say was I find it hopeful that you at least thought about it.
I basically meant to say it means you aren't dead inside.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
Rainy day today. Not a good day for a morning bike ride. I covered 2.8 mi. on the ground 0.6 mi. walk / 1.8 mi. run / 0.4 mi. walk.
No contact with my W today at all.
Spent some time today thinking about my M. I was all over the place, really. One minute I'm ticked off, thinking about how much of an issue I would have if she said she tried everything to save the M. Another minute, I'll think about how much I've grown through all this and who I've become. Another minute, I'll be excited about the prospect of starting a new M - the next minute I'll dread it. Another minute I'll remember who my W really is and what potential she has if she'd take a positive direction. And so on. It's a roller coaster. Part of me just gets tired of thinking about it period.
Had some excitement at work today. There was a fire in my building and we all had to get out and the fire trucks surrounded the building. This fire came at the same time my company was having an anniversary celebration down the street. The building was still there after the party.
I had my S tonight. We didn't do anything too terribly exciting. We just played a board game after dinner.
One thing that's interesting is he's asked my to pray for my W's happiness during our bedtime prayer.
Tomorrow's another day. I hope to be able to meet my S for lunch. I don't have him tomorrow night and I have my Men's group at church - really looking forward to that!
Rainy raw day today. The temperature's in the 40s. Skipped my exercise this morning with the hopes of getting something in tonight or tomorrow morning.
Hi, JB! Thought I'd drop in to see how my friends are doing. The fact that your son asks to pray for your wife's happiness is proof that you are rubbing off on him in the best of ways. I know his prayer request must make you terribly proud of him and at the same time terribly sad for your wife. If anyone understands the rollercoaster of thoughts and emotions you are experiencing, it's me. Just keep laying it all down at the foot of the cross, and God will give you the clarity you need as you move forward. I hope the sun comes out again soon in your part of the world, JB! Hang in there, and enjoy lunch with your kiddo.
lc4 - it always brings joy to my heart when I see you've stopped in.
Yes, I am incredibly proud of my S. I want him to grow in a positive way through this, too. I've also had to walk the fine line with him on why things are the way they are. The only reason my W has given him is that she's unhappy. Frankly, she hasn't given me much more than that. My S has rarely, if never, has seen us fight. I've gone as far as to tell him I didn't kick Mommy out and that I still love her. I have not suggested, however, that we'd get back together or anything similar. I am trying to show him through my own actions where to turn in adversity. He's definitely seeing that I'm doing something at church several times a week.
I had a short interaction with my W while she came to pick up my S. I was on my way out anyway, but I needed to solidify the plans for the weekend. I walked out to her car and she was on the phone, She hung up the phone with some guy. She quickly said it was a friend who has having trouble with his girlfriend. Whatever. Who knows what she's getting herself into or what kind of crowd she's running with these days? Our interaction tonight was all business. I wanted to map out the weekend on what we're doing.
The GAL'ing activity of choice tonight was Thursday night Men's group at church. This is turning out to be a fantastic group. A bunch of great guys and everyone's just honest and authentic. It also looks like I am going to have a football party with the Men's group at my house at the end of the month! If the Bengals sell out, we'll be able to watch Bengals-Browns. If they don't sell out, we'll still watch football.
I decided to defer all my exercise to tomorrow morning. It's in the lower 40s here and it's still raining. Night + rain = bad combo for skinny bike tires.
JB, right there with you on your thoughts about your wife. I think they're "normal"....at least I have the same feelings. I love the woman I know she really is but am very perplexed and upset by what she is right now and what she is doing to our family.
All we can do is what we are doing...be a great Dad and a great man. Maybe she'll come out of her fog, maybe she won't. The only certainty is that we will be fine and so will our sons.
I think you were completely on the money. It assures me that if things don't work out, then there are good women out there. 
My S has rarely, if never, has seen us fight. I've gone as far as to tell him I didn't kick Mommy out and that I still love her. I have not suggested, however, that we'd get back together or anything similar. I am trying to show him through my own actions where to turn in adversity. He's definitely seeing that I'm doing something at church several times a week.