Just wanted to update, though not too much happening on the H issue, but I GOT A JOB TODAY!!! I have been unemployed for a year, one week post BD. I am so stinking excited. Though I do not start the job until Nov. 14th, which is when the next training starts, this is a turning point for me. I will be a case manager for the Department of Children Services which is great because I have the education for this and it is the job I wanted. Though I have applied and interviewed for jobs I thought I would like, this is the one for me! The pay is only a few hundred dollars less then my last job.
Now for my H, not much going on there, I thought he was reconnecting with D17, but no such luck. We don't see or hear from him often, he seems to think attending D17's competition is good quality time with his D17. I did have to go talk to him today because my new job training is out of town and I asked that he come stay with D17 Sunday through Thursday nights for 9 weeks so she will not be alone. He said he would, of course I am not going to be here so that is okay. Though when I told him I found a job he was genuinely happy for me, then there was a moment of fear and he asked, "where?" I said here. He knew I have been looking out of town and even out of state for a job and I think it scared him for a minute to think I would be leaving. LOL! But after that he asked me all kinds of questions, which he never asks anything about me.
Now, that being said, he could just be so happy, because when he brought up divorce back in April, he said he was going to file after I found a job, so we will see.
Me, I am doing great. I have completely redone my kitchen, and using Goodwill and garage sale finds to decorate. Most of them I am having to re-paint to match my colors, but I love being crafty. I have fewer down days, and really they are down moments. I have found so many blessings through this journey. I have a much better relationship with my daughter than I ever thought possible, because she was daddy's little princess. She and I have so much fun together and at 17 we have few disagreements. She is a little concerned about being with her father while I am off to training. But she said she will keep reminding herself, he is just not her real dad. We had a good laugh with that, but it is sad.
I do read here daily and I post when I can. Not having access to the computer too much it is hard to type on the phone. Know that I am praying for you all!
Hugs and Blessings!
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
