Another crisis.....but H opening up now

[angel61]

Today is my 50th birthday.

Here is my birthday promise:

"I promise that from this moment on, I will live my life with unabashed delight and confidence, using my full wisdom, creativity, love, and energy. I invite and encourage others to join with me, think with me, and act in all of our best interests. As a basis for living this fully, I will pay loving and thoughtful attention to the needs of my body, mind, heart and soul, and welcome other people’s love and attention when it is freely given. I will respect and honor others and never permit anyone, including myself, to invalidate or diminish other people and their feelings."

Thank you everyone for being such good friends! I wish I could all invite you to come over for my birthday and we could have one big happy celebration, instead of the countless pity parties I have shared with you. I have to admit, I shed a few tears yesterday, thinking about where my life has gone, but again, I turned around and started counting my blessings, and this made me feel better.

This morning, I woke up really early and H greeted me a happy birthday. He kidded me about being a "golden girl". I asked what my gift was and he said "later". I am not expecting though, but if he gives me one, that ill be a huge bonus.

We are celebrating though with a trip to NY tomorrow, to a fancy dinner/event there and a stay in a fancy hotel in Times Square. I know it is going to be like two BFF's going out instead of a "date" type of thing, but I still am going all out with my outfit- my little black bustier dress and stilletos. At least he will be proud to have me hanging on his arm as we go around the event venue. Who knows, maybe some of the guys there might find me attractive and make him jealous....

I know, no expectations. I am a realist. I will enjoy the night for what it is. And I am thankful that for whatever it is, H still cares enough to want to celebrate my big day with me.

Pray for me!