I should feel good, right? But I feel scared. I want what he said to be true, but after witnessing almost 3 1/2 months of mlc behavior...and listening to some seriously painful things over and over....i just dont know. I'm a little freaked out.
I still sense his wall he has up inside of him.
The other day he told me...he doesnt want to give up on himself and the things that he wants and that if he stayed with me...that meant giving up on himself.
So i sit here wondering what has transpired in him to decide to tell me he is not leaving. I love him and i dont want him giving up on himself either.
This is so confusing, but when he is home from work tonight i will not be asking him these questions.
